Originally, I wanted to order the Oracle of Shadows and Light by eye-size, or convince myself that there were some meaningful subgroups of cards in the deck (e.g. mermaids/weather fairies, frightened/helpless girls with the hugest eyes of them all, pouting girls who probably didn’t get the sweets at the checkout, round-eyed girls who must all be siblings because they look so alike, sort-of-relatively-not-quite-as-cutesie girls, “ethnic” girls who are so horrible that I wanted to write an entire post about them but then decided that would be taking the deck way too seriously, girls vaguely referencing classic “art” or “history”).
But when I looked at all the cards at once, as they were lying there, huddling together on my carpet, I noticed I grew increasingly and deeply annoyed with the completely formulaic construction of their faces.
And then I just had to grab a pencil and the back of an old application form for my bellydance classes to prove just how simple these faces were constructed: round shape, tiny pouting mouth a few millimeters from the chin, tiny nose made from some circles, a shadowy stripe across the face where the eyes are, wide-set huge eyes (we’re still in the lower third of the entire head here), pencil-thin eyebrows, artfully draped hair that covers difficult parts like ears, necks, or shoulders and takes up at least half of the head shape.
Almost immediately, it became clear that this was developing into a self-portrait of my feelings about this deck, so I added some colored pencils and ended up with this drawing (or rather, sketch). It’s also the only reason why the hair is not parted in the middle because there is a limit to how ridiculous I’m willing to look.
I call the result the “Annoyed-with-Insultingly-Shallow-Deck Fairy.” (You can’t see her wings because they are hanging down in disgruntled disappointment. No, I can’t explain why she has no left shoulder.).
The only problem is that I now have to be grateful because by way of my pissed-off-ness about it, the damn deck actually made me draw again… Now I’m even annoyeder.