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Checking the chakras with Morgan’s Tarot


Since I wanted to do at least one reading with the actual deck before I move on to the next one, I decided to do a chakra spread as a general check-up on things. It’s pretty straight-forward: one card for each of the seven chakras, starting at the bottom (associations are the ones I learned in a chakra harmonization class I once took).

1. Root chakra (self-preservation, security, survival, root)You are experiencing an illegitimate feeling

The image of this card immediately reminds me of the scene at the drive-in cinema from the movie Grease, which I rewatched a short while ago. True to the gender stereotypes of the 1980s (when the movie was made) studly Danny wants to get some physical action while uptight Sandy is all about hands-off romance. Of course this leads to misunderstandings and frustration for both of them (which seem to be made even worse by the fact that none of them clearly owns their desires and instead expects the other one to just agree with them without communication or even negotiation). Of course, this card lets us know, feelings aren’t “illegitimate” – they just are. Neither Danny nor Sandy are “right” or “wrong” in their desires.

I believe this is alluding to my decision to leave my (arguably) good job – which has been called a “courageous” step by many people. It doesn’t feel so courageous to me, though, because I simply don’t feel it’s a threat to my basic existential security. I trust in my ability to find a new (and better!) way to make a living when it’s time to do so, and I know that I have enough money in my bank account to support myself for the time of my ‘sabbatical.’ I suppose it’s a good thing that this is an area where I feel quite secure indeed for now.

2. Sacral chakra (emotions, sexuality, sensuality)Freak

This freak is a female one, if her three breasts are any indication.I’m not surprised by seeing her appear here, since so much of my emotional and sexual inclinations easily fall into ‘freak’ territory. At the beginning of my identification as a femme, that meant a passionate determination to explore as many facets of human sexuality as I could in theory, and many of them in practice as well. I studied sexuality like other people learn a musical instrument. Eventually I got to the point where I felt like I was actually good at this.

More recently, however, I have been feeling like a very different kind of ‘freak’ due to my almost complete lack of emotional, sensual, and sexual passion. I still don’t know how much of this is just a ‘normal’ part of being in a (theoretically polyamourous but mostly monogamous-by-circumstance) long-term relationship because I’ve never been together even half as long with anyone than I am with my current partner. Nor do I know how much my partner’s gender transition (that is, mostly his decision to take testosterone and the resulting social consequences) has impacted this. I just know that I don’t feel curious and excited about sexuality anymore, just jaded and tired. On some level, I still feel ashamed of this development, like I am a queer/femme failure. Maybe the focus on sexuality that is apparent in much of the queer community also plays a part in this. Or maybe it’s really mostly just me and my very own, very personal issues.

At any rate, the Freak card is very apt here!

3. Solar plexus chakra (self-worth, power)Maya – The Field of the Lord

A baby carriage stands next to a wheelchair facing the opposite direction, the sun is setting, the moon is rising. If there were any people in these vehicles, they would likely be able to look at each other. But no one is there. I’m not quite sure what to make of this…

I suppose the baby carriage and wheelchair are supposed to symbolize infancy and old age, but what comes inbetween the two? Maybe I’m supposed to let go of the idea that life happens on a one-way path from birth to death and to question what is appropriate for any given age. Because, yeah, I’ve mentioned my age rather often during the last few years, and maybe that wasn’t always so useful (but instead created artificial boundaries between me and people of different ages).

The image also reminds me of the Pagan triad of “Maiden, Mother, Crone” and its focus on fertility and a predetermined course of life for any woman (read some of my criticism of that here), including the need to justify ourselves for the ones who don’t comply with that way of life.

Maybe the card is a reminder not to get too hung up on any of these categories (age, gender, etc.), without denying their influences on us. But influence does not mean determination, right?

4. Heart chakra (love)I still don’t understand

This must have been the height of technology back when the deck was created: a computer so big that it takes up and entire room. Sounds also a bit like Terry Pratchett’s Hex… But I’m sure this is not about my lack of love (or understanding) for the contemporary height of technology.

It could be a simple reminder that love is not an intellectual endeavour, but I don’t think (ha!) I’ve approached it as one recently. Hm… I’m afraid I still don’t understand this card right now… (Ideas, anyone?)

5. Throat chakra (self-expression, communication, giving/taking)There are no others

A lone sea serpent looks out from a body of water. Since I’ve been reading Northern mythology these days, I’m of course thinking of J├Ârmungandr here, even though this snake doesn’t bite its own tail. But there is no reason for it to limit its power if there are no others, right?

I take that to mean that I should express myself as if there are no others who would approve or disapprove. However, if there are no others, what’s the point of expressing anything anymore? Or does it just mean that I’m not supposed to listen to their judgments of whatever it is that I may be expressing?

The LWB tells a little story that ends with this sentence: “But if all pronouns are abolished there is only one god in the bouncing universe.” Which is precisely what I’ve come to doubt more and more in the past months and weeks. Yes, I still vaguely refer to “the Universe” when I mean non-human powers in general, but I’m not so sure I actually believe there is a single “Universe” (Higher Power, God/dess, Whatever) out there. Instead, I’m slowly coming round to realize that I really seem to believe in many different gods and goddesses and other spiritual beings from many different pantheons and traditions. I don’t have much proof (that is, what I would consider proof) of that so far, but it still makes sense on a fundamental level. No, I don’t think that belief in a certain deity automatically leads to worshipping them. But for now, I find it easy to assume that all those deities and other spiritual beings exist somewhere (including the Christian or Jewish God and the Muslim Allah), even though humans may choose to actively worship just a few of them (or just one), from one pantheon or several. I suppose that makes me at least a semi-hard polytheist, if I learned my vocabulary right. Who would have thunk it?

So yeah, that probably needed expressing at some point.

6. Third eye chakra (visions, goals, purpose)And there I was… surrounded

A big flower, surrounded by lots of little flowers. I read this on two levels: Being supported by like-minded individuals. Realizing I’m a part of a larger whole anyway, even if I don’t actively try.

Maybe I’ll actually find some like-minded people the more I realize what my (next) vision for this life actually is. Discovering a German-language Heathen/Asatru forum that is populated by intelligent people who actively work against racism in Heathenry/Asatru may be one step into this direction. Actually knowing one of them personally already may be another one. I’m also finding roughly like-minded people as I explore other contributions to the Pagan Blog Project, so that’s a third step. Maybe I’m not as alone and ‘freaky’ as I thought!

The card also tells me that I’m a part of ‘nature’ already, no matter if I consciously think of it or not. I live on this planet, I’m a part of it. End of story. What I make of this realization, in those moments that I consciusly have it, is another question. I believe the goal is to be more aware more of the time so that it becomes more and more obvious and tangible just how interconnected everything on this planet is. There is no ‘outside’ of it. Which is both comforting and frustrating, depending on my degree of optimism on any given day.

7. Crown chakra (spirituality, connection to the divine)Door to the Akashic Records

Clearly, someone is watching…Bolts of lightening? Thor? Zeus? Xolotl? One eye only? Odin? A cyclops? A sun symbol? Sunna? Ra? Sekhmet? I can’t be sure at this point.

I don’t really know what the “Akashic Records” are (although I think it’s a great name for a music shop that sells old vinyl) except that they are some kind of library that is supposed to hold all knowledge about all humans and their fate (hmm, not bad for half-knowledge!). And now I wonder how similar the idea of Wyrd is to that… But let’s not get into a huge theological research project here.

At any rate, someone is paying attention, and there is at least the opportunity for making a more direct connection. Sound good to me.

Or maybe it means I can (theoretically) access these “records” – although I wouldn’t quite know how to do that, because I don’t think reading oracles the way I do is enough for that…

I’m glad to report that I seem to be able to actually read with the deck. And despite some dated references to the New Age ideas of the late 1960s I much enjoy the weirdness of it.

If only the cards were a bit smaller, say, playing card size. Then it would be even better. Not because I have any shuffling-related complaints, but because this is one of the rare decks that would be better if it were a bit smaller. More intimate. More back pocket of a well-worn pair of jeans-size.


Proverbial wackiness


Because I had so much fun with it, I’m doing another “proverb” draw with the Morgan’s Tarot. Once again, I’m using the online version of the deck.

Du wacky du — wacky, a new perspective, going at something ass-backwards, being about to roll

Your doubt is your faith if necessary in your particular case perhaps — doubt, relativization, insecurity, faith, questioning

Slimy glob reigns — hard to grasp, icky, taking over, the magic of slime mold, dissolving, boundless

That makes:

Doubt allows you a new perspective on dissolving boundaries.
A process of questioning what’s hard to grasp is about to begin.
Wacky questions rule!
Possibly maybe we should let slime mold design networks for us.
Don’t roll over when the slime of insecurity creeps in!

The message is rather fuzzy and hard to nail down today. But like the Hanged Man of tarot, the Du wacky du bird of this deck brings new perspectives that may even help us realize that questioning that which seems ubiquitous, that which seems to slowly seep into everywhere may just be what we need to get our heads out of our asses. Be wary of the slime of what seems oh-so-normal!

Make your own proverb


How convenient to be able to do online readings with my deck of the week! That enables me to do a draw with the intention of creating my own proverb for the day. It works like this:

  1. You draw a few cards (three seem to be a good number) from your deck of choice.
  2. Then you write down a few words/concepts you associate with each card on that day.
  3. Now you make several combinations of these words, taking one from each card.
  4. Pick your favorite one.

The picture is a screenshot from the online draw, which is why the cards don’t quite look like my 2009 edition.


Love — Love, peace, sunshine, friendship, support, just being

There is nothing… you can do — Separation, acceptance, crafting/craft, detachment, refusal, lack of choice

Freak — Freak, monster, strange, not giving a shit, alien, connected, special

This makes:

Love accepts strangeness.
Make peace and accept the monster within.
Friendship makes the alienation go away.
You are what you are, and that’s a freak who doesn’t give a shit about other people’s opinion.

It seems I come back to the idea of embracing one’s strangeness and being supported in it by people who love us.

It’s an apt message for today (and actually not just for today).

New Deck: Morgan’s Tarot


I realize I haven’t posted a single reading with the Ancient Italian Tarot on this blog (I only read for others and lack their permission to post here), even though I extended my time with it to two weeks. But it’s still time for a new deck. The random number generatot suggests these:

Another very easy choice: Morgan’s Tarot it is. The other two seem study-intensive, with a focus on something I don’t feel like studying right now. Besides, I’ve wanted to use this deck forever, but never got around to it before. By the way, it’s not a tarot, despite its name, but an 88-card oracle without any apparent structure.

Before I got a copy of the re-issued (and, sadly, partly re-drawn deck), I often ended my day with a single-card draw from the virtual Morgan’s Tarot. I won’t pretend that I always understood the message but I always loved the artwork. For a long time it seemed the deck would be way too hard to get anyway, seeing that it was out of print and all. But in 2009, U.S. Games decided to reprint it. At first, I was disappointed with the new version because it seemed too clean for me. All the writing had been redone, and I wasn’t sure I liked it.

I’m still not sure, but I nevertheless got the deck eventually.

I’m thinking that using it may be a little like using the Discordian Deck, but with more drug references and less of a system behind it. The back design already makes me remember the art I admired (and partly created) during my first years of smoking cannabis products myself. I don’t do that anymore, but I still fondly remember those times. And I sorely miss the creativity that came with them. But that’s another story for another day.