My day today will happen in four easily distinguishable parts, all of which are interesting in some way. So I’m asking the Silicon Dawn what I need to know about these four parts.
Looks like I’ll be spending quite some time on the internet, and it’s likely to be more than I initially intended (as it often the case with me and the internet). Because the internet has no end, and I like to finish things.
It’s also true that I’m “pregnant” (and I usually wouldn’t use that particular metaphor if the picture didn’t force it onto me) with a whole kindergarden of ideas. I think they’re at least septuplets (fraternal ones).
And research is one of my favorite strategies to avoid doing stuff. Until I accidentally fall over the edge of a cliff (oops! I didn’t notice it was that close already!) and have to improvise. Fortunately I’m not only a perfectionist but also really good at improvising.
Oh, and I do have a tendency to be a bit shortsighted. Even attempting to plan any long-term stuff often makes me stop thinking properly altogether. But I do have a telescope with me, because I still like taking a small peek at the far-away every now and then. You see, telescopes limit your vision sideways (on all sides), so it’s not quite as overwhelming.
Finally, I already had an inspiration for one of my little septuplet projects and I took a first step towards it. And it’s not even 11 o’clock (thank my neighbor for ringing my bell a good two hours before I had planned to get up).
I’ll be meeting up with a sort-of friend later. I’m a bit surprised to see this card come up here for that meeting because I perceive my friend as a highly emotional person. But then he also obsessively analyzes his emotional life, so a Swords card may be more suitable than I initially thought.
This guy (the one on the card) is figuring out where to go, making complicated calculations. I get a feeling that this isn’t a flight just for the fun of it but that he also carries some kind of weapon (a bomb?). The red button just emphasizes that aspect. I may have to act as some kind of calming and grounding influence.
Or maybe we will hatch plans together, seeing that we have something in common we both want to do in the foreseeable future (foreseeable even for me, cf. The Fool 0.1).
Goodness, what an explosion of energy! I’m not that kind of a gamer (I only do point and click adventures where I don’t have to keep track of life energy, battle power, and how many healing potions I still have compared to how many monsters to defeat – or talk into cooperation), but I still understand that ninety-nine times 1up is a whole fricking lot of power. Could make you invincible. Or burnt-out. Or even bored because very soon there will be no one left to challenge you because it’s no fun when you know you don’t even have an off chance of winning. And fun is important!
Since there will be a group meeting this evening, I’m now expecting some unexpected (how’s that for a paradox?) burst of energy. At the same time, I’ll watch myself to make sure I’m not over-powering anyone else, should that energy and power be mine.
Here’s what Egypt Urnash initially said about the 99s:
If 9 is ‘perfection’ in the numerology of the Tarots I used, 99 is ‘too much perfection’. So much it becomes something else.
I’ve tried to take these silly concepts and treat them with some seriousness. What does the video game concept of “an extra life” mean in the real world? It’s a second chance. It’s a suggestion that what you think is total defeat is just a setback.
The 99s are a reminder that while a lot of things about interpersonal relationships haven’t changed since the Tarot was first invented, some things about the world they’re embedded in have. We have the same old fights in the magical new media congealing on the Internet. We have new traps to fall into – how many friends do you have who are avoiding their depression by counting levels in WoW or some other online RPG? But we also have new metaphors coming from these new trades and tools; we can extend ourselves in surprising ways.
There’s good stuff in that quote. Today, “too much perfection” to me means totally overdoing the perfectionism in a totally unimportant area, which leads to something that is definitely not perfect – because at some point you end up with something devoid of all life.
I also like the idea of a second chance, and the relief you feel when you notice you just got one (but also tension because you don’t want to fuck up things again, cf. The Fool 0.1).
I may have to get back to you about this one – after all, it’s a group and as such I have no idea what everyone will bring to the table and what will happen with that once we meet.
A double sunset and someone walking away from the sea. Fingerprints from me on the glossy parts of the picture. And a feather that is being dropped (is it burning?).
The blackness fits with the time of day, and I feel comfortable in the solitude of that card. It feels meditative, but also a bit sad. An ending. But the maybe-burning feather also reminds me of phoenixes and being reborn – if nothing else, then the next morning.
While the fingerprints suggest I may leave some temporary traces, this won’t be a hugely productive night. Instead, it will be a time for quiet reflection. Sounds good to me!
After reading the text from the companion book for this card, I also have to say that I just can’t see the complete hopelessness and emptiness in the (VOID) cards that Egypt Urnash describes. Because these cards aren’t empty at all if you look at them right. And maybe sometimes we need to disappear a little, or rather, give up our illusion of being separate from the rest of this world and just merge with it. I’m not saying I’m good at that, mind you, but it doesn’t seem like something horrible to me (my ego, however, would beg to differ).
Again, the Silicon Dawn offers layers and layers of meaning and propels me into philosophy/spirituality land at the most unexpected points. I like!
P.S. I’ll upload pictures later. Ran out of time to do that just now!
Edited to add:
It’s after “evening” now and I’ve just returned home. I’m adding the pictures I promised now, and I can already give myself feedback (that’s the one really good thing about draws for the day).
Morning was pretty much as I described. I didn’t exactly waste time but I also wasn’t the most efficient. But then I’m on a holiday, so efficiency isn’t the #1 priority for me just now. Around noon I also realized that the Fool’s pregnancy also means she’s not quite ready to give birth, so I’m totally fine with not having finished anything (except, sort of, this post).
My friend was indeed in analyzing mode when we met in the early afternoon. And after some initial annoyedness with him because he once again just launched into what is going on for him at the moment before we had even sat down (to be fair: I often do that as well, in my way, so I can’t seriously point my finger here) we eventually had a really interesting exchange of thoughts. Not at all unemotional but still very think-y (which is a combination I enjoy a lot). I also just notice that I was feeling quite calm and grounded most of the time. I even managed to put some of my own muddled stuff into words as I tried to explain a few things to him, which helped me understand myself a bit better.
And yes, my evening did bring an unexpected eruption. We did a group perception exercise and suddenly we were talking about the proverbial elephant that had been standing around in the living-room all the time, noticed by everyone but never quite addressed. As I so often do with these elephants, I was the one to describe my perception of the situation more bluntly than the others. I have to admit, though, that I went a bit overboard and only realized afterwards that I had “hit” another group member harder than I intended to. When I realized that, I apologized and added some balance to my original judgment, but I could still see the damage was done. And when I realized that I had done exactly what the cards had warned me not to do, I secretly kicked myself in the butt for my failure to put two and two together early enough. (I don’t regret having said something but I do regret my harshness. This one time, the harshness really hadn’t been my job, and I still delivered it because that’s what I usually do.) Oh well. I hope it will all seem less dramatic once everybody has slept on it.
Now it is night and I’m pretty wiped out. I had planned to do a reading for someone, but I think I’ll postpone that until tomorrow. Instead, I will do a small tour of my main internet stops, and then I will go to bed early. Following from the previous card the subtle phonenix theme of this one lets me be optimistic that there won’t be any lasting damage to either the group or the person as a result of my actions.